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Bud Clayman

Bud Clayman is the publisher of OC87 Recovery Diaries. The website is an outgrowth of the autobiographical documentary film, OC87: The Obsessive Compulsive, Major Depression, Bipolar, Asperger’s Movie. Bud created, co-directed (along with Glenn Holsten and Scott Johnston) and was the principle subject of OC87, which had its theatrical premiere in 2012 and can now be seen on on Netflix, Amazon and YouTube. The film chronicles Bud’s ongoing battle with mental illness. OC87 Recovery Diaries expands on that story by allowing others to share their own stories of empowerment. His vision is simple yet challenging: to have a world free of mental illness stigma.

Interview With Psychiatrist Dr. Larry Real (Part 2)


In the concluding part of my interview with Dr. Larry Real, we discuss such issues as mental illness stigma, how peer specialists are helping to combat that stigma, and how there is even stigma within the mental health field itself. This I find particularly alarming because it is hard enough for people like me to come out and say “I have a mental illness,” and then not be able to get adequate help.

But that is why we have psychiatrists like Larry, who are dedicated to transforming the mental health system into a recovery-oriented model, which is what people who are suffering need most. We need organizations like NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) to step up to the plate and help families provide the support that they and their loved ones need.

Before I met Larry, my family was kept out of my treatment, but that inclusive support is crucial to recovery. (more…)

Interview With Psychiatrist Dr. Larry Real (Part 1)


Dr. Larry Real and Bud Clayman

This is part one of a two part interview. Follow this link to read part two of Bud Clayman’s interview with Dr. Larry Real.

I first met Dr. Larry Real in 1992, when I was mentally sick and in a lot of emotional trouble. I had already begun to show symptoms of bipolar disorder, and was not sleeping well, no matter when I tried. My mom, Lila, had been part of a family group that was sponsored by AJMI (Alliance for the Jewish Mentally Ill) which later became the Jewish support group, Tikvah. When she saw that I was beginning to lose it, she contacted Larry, who was a co-founder of the group, and he suggested that the three of us meet.

I was very reluctant because I wanted to be left alone, and God only knew what he had planned for me! When we first met, I was zoned out and very fearful. But Larry laid it all out on the line for me: I needed some type of assisted living facility for people with mental illness. I needed to learn how to become independent again and manage my illness, because I did have an illness, whether I wanted to admit it or not. At the end of the meeting Larry said something like, “And you’ll need to learn how to flip a burger again for yourself.” I was always ordering take-out and eating unhealthy foods during my illness.

I have reminded him about that statement over the years and we both always have a good laugh, but it was true. And although I have been out of assisted living and on my own for fifteen years now, I still owe a lot to Larry and my mom for getting me on the road to recovery. I am proud to say that I can now call Larry a friend and colleague and not just another doctor who has passed though my life.


The Perfect Storm

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I came out to Los Angeles again for the first time in two years with much trepidation. But isn’t that what life is all about — facing your fears??!!!

Why did I come out here to push myself beyond what most people with my OCD and Asperger’s Syndrome conditions wouldn’t do? For starters, I’m motivated to succeed in life and overcome all my fears. I’m sure there are better and nobler causes but for now this where I am.

The second reason is I love Los Angeles and have “unfinished” business here.

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Confronting Stigma


This is the fourth and final part of an interview series on OCD with specialist Jon Hershfield. Read the other installments “Defining OCD,” “More On OCD,” “An OCD Therapist’s Story,” and please comment on this post with your feedback.

Bud Clayman: I’ve been told that it takes anywhere from 10 to 15 years to be diagnosed with OCD and get into treatment [at least that’s what it took for me]. If that’s true, how does someone reading this interview recognize if they even have OCD [and why does it take so long to recognize that you have the disease]?

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An OCD Therapist’s Story


This is part three of a four-part interview series on OCD with specialist Jon Hershfield. Read part one, “Defining OCD,” part two, “More On OCD,” and tune in next week for the fourth installment.

Bud Clayman: I [would like] to talk about your life a bit. How long have you been a therapist? I know you started out as an actor. Is that true?

Jon Hershfield: Yeah, it’s been a long strange journey indeed.

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More On OCD


This is part two of a four-part interview series on OCD with specialist Jon Hershfield. Read part one “Defining OCD” and tune in next week for the third installment.

Bud Clayman: So talk about the therapist [in] cognitive behavioral therapy.

Jon Hershfield: Cognitive behavioral therapy is divided into the ‘C’ and the ‘B’ of CBT. The C is for cognitive, which refers to “thought” and one of the things we know about OCD is that while you can’t control the thoughts you have, you have some influence over how you respond to those thoughts and how you think about those thoughts.

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Silver Linings Playbook


I went into the film Silver Linings Playbook somewhat skeptical. A friend of mine who is in the mental health field and has direct family experience with Bipolar Disorder felt the film treaded lightly over Pat Solatano’s (Bradley Cooper) own Bipolar illness. I also went into the film with my own life experience with Bipolar Disorder. I suffered for a good ten years—at least—from the illness.

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