Emily-Jane Clark, Author at OC87 Recovery Diaries googletag.pubads().collapseEmptyDivs(true);

Emily-Jane Clark

Emily-Jane Clark is a freelance journalist and creator of the popular website stolensleep.com. She is currently working on the first book ever written about babies and sleep to contain no advice whatsoever -- Sleep Is For The Weak.

Postnatal Depression: Confessions of a “Terrible” Mother


Before I had a baby, I assumed caring for a newborn would be easy. I had read all the books and subscribed to the parenting websites. I was an organized person and coped well under pressure. My husband and I were happily married and we had just moved into our first family home. I had decided I would return to work after six months on maternity leave. I had it all figured out.

I thought I knew exactly what to expect when I was expecting. I thought I was prepared. Then I gave birth and nothing was anything like I had expected.

It is inevitable you will go a little mad when you have your first baby. From the moment your little one arrives your whole world is turned upside-down. You are tired, physically uncomfortable and trying to keep a tiny human intact on barely any sleep.

However, if you continue to feel low, hopeless, or anxious then you might want to talk to your doctor. Postnatal depression (PND) affects one in ten women, yet many people still ignore or hide their symptoms, afraid that they will be perceived as bad mothers or weak people.

I did this, and it turned out to be a terrible idea.

I am not a bad mother or a weak person, I just got sick. It was not my fault. It sometimes just happens.  (more…)