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Ivy McQuain

Ivy N. McQuain is an author, business owner, publisher, speaker and mother of two sons, Dee and Nick. She always lived her life "in the moment" never really caring about what she did or how it would make her look. It wasn't until 2015 that she decided enough was enough and went to go get help for the diagnoses of Bipolar I Disorder she received in 2004. Now she is working tirelessly to help Blacks living with mental illness get the help they need as well as others who live with the shame of being mentally ill. Ivy created a video blog called "Young, Black and Bipolar" on YouTube to help others in their journey of mental wellness.

Young, Black and Bipolar

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I can’t believe that I made it 35 years without a single incident with the police that could possibly affect me for the rest of my life. But there I was, on my mother’s birthday, sitting in jail for an alcohol-induced physical altercation with my boyfriend. I knew I crossed the line and had allowed my mood swings to get the best of me. I ruined the romantic weekend that he planned for us by harping on something that happened almost a year ago. I was in a tailspin because of the stressful weekend that I had dealing with both my sons and my business (emotions were high, finances were low). I was a mental wreck and I knew it. He hoped that going away for the weekend would allow me to calm down and gather my thoughts — but I just couldn’t. My mind was a mess. Every little thing set me off and I didn’t want to play fair, so I drank the restaurant’s three-drink limit and everything I had been feeling came out verbally and physically.

I had completely lost control of my life.

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