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Mary Rogers

Mary Rogers finds inspiration in nature, Karmic Reciprocity, self reflection, human nature and anything that enlivens the ether. You can find her star gazing and cloud chasing on a Monday or sipping hot chai in mid-July. She is about contradiction, animation and love. She is on her journey of self-reflection through her best artistic expression. She is a dreamer, a high achiever and can often be found on a hike, watching waves crash, hula hooping, disc golfing, or planning her next big adventure. She is an assistant at, founder of and is a columnist at elephant and

The Letter To Mother: PTSD, Anxiety & Major Depression

This is part two of Mary Rogers’ story. You can read part one at this link


I am still in the process of healing with the help of a psychiatrist, a therapist, and the love of my life. He has been my lighthouse showing me my way home. He was my beacon in the night. I am working hard daily, to show up, be present, and deal. I am finding strength and have determined that maybe God doesn’t hate me and maybe hope isn’t bullshit after all.

My psychiatrist has been an angel in disguise. When I first came to her, I was a shell of a person who had become used to having my cheeks stained with mascara as I could not stop nor contain my tears.

She immediately set me up with twice-weekly therapy appointments, started me on medication, and began working closely with me to offer me other alternatives.

I learned of the calming benefits contained within ashwagandha and about how your body can absorb magnesium through bathing with Epsom salts. I learned a lot about exercise (releasing endorphins while getting fresh air and sunshine). I learned about nutrition (and the mind/body connection). Most importantly, I learned the importance of communication.

At first I had a very difficult time converting my emotion into words. I was very “stuck” in the fourth stage of grief: depression. Under my therapist’s suggestion, I wrote my mother a letter.


Once Upon A Time: PTSD, Anxiety & Major Depression


This is part one of Mary Rogers’ story. Follow this link to read part two.



I reside in Nevada County (Grass Valley, CA) and I often write about my struggles with major depressive disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), and anxiety disorders that often lead to panic attacks. I have been under the care of a psychiatrist and a therapist for most of my life dealing with the physical and psychological abuse and triggers I experienced as a child.

More recently, I underwent a slight psychological break. Determined to claw my way out of the darkness, I began to write about my journey and experiences (under the guidance of several behavioral health professionals). 

Here is my story…