OC87 Recovery Diaries is proud to welcome Mike Hedrick to the team as a regular contributor. We will feature a piece of Mike’s writing on the second and fourth Wednesday of each month, in addition to essays from our guest writers. Mike writes openly, candidly and often humorously about his mental illness with the hope that his work provides strength to millions worldwide who are like him. Mike’s work has been featured in the New York Times, Salon.com, the Washington Post and several other major publications. Published in 2003, Mike’s book, Schizophrenic Connections, is available on Amazon.com.
I start to feel a bit of ennui, a French word meaning, “general malaise.” This can go on for a while until the ennui surrounds me and depression sets in.
Maintaining mental health stability is a delicate dance that, at times, can be very unstable and can cause some serious trouble if you fall.
Finding stability with a mental illness, like anything else worthwhile, takes time, effort, and openness to learning, and failing.
Living with schizophrenia, I’ve been through the full gamut of side-effects. New side-effects pop up to say “hello” with each medication I’m prescribed.
When I was deep in the midst of a psychotic break, I was convinced that I was a prophet sent from God to save society from its ills.
Living with schizophrenia, I’ve experienced all manner of delusions about the way I think the way things are, and the way they actually are.
Love can be the gasoline on schizophrenia’s fire, playing tricks on your mind and it can lead you to places from which you may not be able to return.
The effect of stress is serious to your mental health. It’s easy to fall into delusional holes if your stress level gets to a point that isn’t manageable.
Taking care of yourself with mental illness requires some fortitude, especially in the face of a mountain of paranoia, delusions and hallucinations.
Pulling back and regaining stability is complicated but it will help exponentially help in the long journey of living with mental illness.
Family is the most important thing for a person with mental illness. We need support and validation that we are not alone in the world
Schizophrenia is an insidious disease. Schizophrenic delusions are persistent, which is one of the major reasons recovery can take such a long time.
One of the things people with schizophrenia do that isn’t that widely understood is the tendency to make connections out of seemingly random things.
The only advice I give is to be there and, above all else, give it time. Time is truly the only thing that can heal in situations like these.
Delusions of grandeur are part of the experience of psychosis. It’s ok if you’re a little crazy. You’re certainly not alone.